While I am working on the surface, my mind wanders across an internal landscape of memories and experiences. Questions that are difficult to answer in the rational world arise in my mind. Growing up with a mentally ill parent impacted my personal and professional lives. Ever since my mother was first diagnosed with schizophrenia, the world has dissected not only her, but also my sister and me. Growing up under an unwanted spotlight left me feeling as if I were being examined silently as opposed to just being asked to express my feelings. It made me feel as if I needed to appease everyone and eventually led to the misinterpretation of my own existence. Constantly walking across a tight rope, trying to appease the audience.

To me, my artwork is a means to express my thoughts, feelings, and emotions. I no longer intend to allow these silent examinations of my life to carry on. Every image I will use will be connected to a gut-wrenching, emotionally evoked feeling I have carried within me all these years. I will work intuitively focusing on my thoughts to create textural environments. These environments will become a strong expression of my internal self. For example, while the bone white coloring I use represents my way of interpreting the feeling of being exhausted and tired, or "warn to the bone", my orgasmic imagery is a reference to feelings of release and clarity of emotions I go through. The movement within my work is an extension of the meditative breathing I go through while producing each piece. I intend to express my feelings in every one of my individual works through the use of color and space, hoping that a resurrection of my true self will be the final result. Each one of my pieces shall represent an emotional stepping-stone within my life and find their own spot in the art world